PAGE ONE: HUMANITY
For humanity, Heinz had been willing to die. His life long focus upon meaning guided him to this decision, helped him to survive and go on, carrying the cost. Heinz lived for nine decades. Having witnessed alot of hope, he could not help but laugh when he heard the title, "A Short History of Progress"[i]. Knowing the repeating pattern with the entrance and exit of hope, Heinz understood the need for a different way of living and learning. In the last years of his life, he believed women's health teaches humanity.
Being real within an unreal structure frequently made Heinz difficult. Knowing I could , without exception, count upon his basics, kept us together the last fifteen years of his life. People who focus upon meaning accept responsibilities without question. They know how to achieve hope In this fine balance, responsibilities connect rights to humanity. Step one is responsibilities. Step two is rights. In a society which focuses upon power, step one can become lost and rights are then about power. Heinz and others like him could not have known that this would happen. As they lived within step one, this was unthinkable. Responsibilities made rights possible. Heinz would ask, "What happened to the left wing?"
During the war, Heinz was allowed to travel to Italy and work in film. Gestapo gave him his passport and a warning. If he did not return to Germany, a friend of his would be put in a concentration camp. The Nazis and Heinz understood each other: what each was capable of doing. They knew he was not a flight risk. Heinz would not consider this an option. These opposites of evil and humanity, were most predictible. The people between, a gray area. Many people make good choices as often as possible. Most people make choices which benefit themselves. This includes choosing not to know what is guiding them. During intense times, when there is no clear choice, facts become distorted. Momentum from fear and the need to believe, can result in mass support of evil. From evil, there is power for the powerless. On the journey to Italy, Heinz had a train car to himself. Desperate people clung to the outside of the moving train. Heinz was compelled to help. In the telling of this story, he explained why he could not help these people. If he were killed, his friend would be put in a concentration camp. As Heinz protected the life of his friend, quite possibly, his friend may have saved Heinz's life. Without focusing upon himself, he survived the war.
Beautiful memory. As Heinz would look up to search the sky, I could see a boy and a man in his face. The childlike wonder of endless possibility within the protection of knowing he was looking in the right direction.